Sunday, 25 January 2009

The Dark Side

I'm afraid to think of what lies ahead
I can not see on what I tread

I'm all alone with just darkness around me
I'm afraid of myself and who I'll turn out to be

I'm afraid of the evil thoughts running through my head
Sometimes I find myself wishing I was dead

I'm afraid of what I'll do when my dark side shows
The evilness inside me I don't want to expose

I feel I'm happy in the darkness and I don't want the light
And I'm afriad that this feeling might turn out to be right

I find comfort in the darkness and the lights burn my eyes
And the goodness inside me I sometimes dispise

I'm afraid that the dark side has taken over me
It's amazing how well in the dark I could see

The lost and the lonleyness seems to be gone
With the darkness beside me I will move on

I'm afraid I have taken a wrong turn down the line
But when everything was lost the darkness seemed fine

I'm frozen up inside so no longer do I feel
The pain, the hurt or anything else real

I'm afraid of this person who I have become
The feeling of nothingness and everything numb

I'm afraid I will never feel afraid again
Is the darkness better or feeling the pain?? :s :s

Friday, 23 January 2009

I'm Still Here

You were here long ago
Now where you are I do not know
But I'm still here

I know you think I would be gone
Just like you that I'll move on
But I'm still here

I'll never forget the words you said
How you cut me open and how I bled
But I'm still here

Mind drifted, memories burn
Once you're gone you can't return
But I'm still here

Some people think that I have left
And only memories I have kept
But I'm still here

If only you would ever know
That without you I'll never go
And I'm still here

A Professional Girl Friend :D

Well I did this quiz to see what kind of a girl friend I am and this was the result... I highly doubt the result my self and don't expect anyone else to believe it either...


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?-->
You Are A Professional Girlfriend!
You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise!Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro.If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you.You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

Tuesday, 20 January 2009

Getting to know me...

I got this from Lady Divine's blog....

1. What time did you get up this morning?
5.52 a.m.

2. Diamonds or pearls?
Diamonds

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
Madagascar

4. What is your favorite TV show?
F-R-I-E-N-D-S

5. What do you usually have for breakfast?
Sandwiches

6. What is your middle name?
Hmmmm... wont mention

7. What food do you dislike?
Tomatoe

8. What is your favorite album at the moment?
Hmmm…. Akon's 'na na na'

9. What kind of car do you drive?
Dont have one.. :(

10. Favorite sandwich?
Egg

11. What characteristics do you despise?
Backstabbing

12. Favorite item of clothing?
Shorts and t- shirts!

13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go?
Right now to the states.. where Bestie is!!!

14. Favorite brand of clothing?
Odel I guess...

15. Where would you retire to?
This house down my lane I am dieing for!!

16. What was your most memorable birthday?
18th :D:D

17. Favorite sport to watch?
Rugger

18. When is your birthday?
3rd August 1988

19. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night person

20. What is your shoe size?
I have no idea!!

21. Pets?
No pets

22. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with us?
Nothing really at the moment.

23. What did you want to be when you were little?
Never had a ambition! :O

24. How are you today?
BORED!!!!

25. What is your favorite candy?
I am not a sweet fan!

26. What kind of flowers do you like?
White roses

27. What day on the calendar are you looking forward to?
No day in particular….

28. What is your full name?
No way am I saying it here….:)

29. What are you listening to right now?
The sound of the fan and the sound of typing by the person in the next workstation.

30. What was the last thing you ate?
Pineapple

31. Do you wish on stars?
Yes .. :)

32. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Navy Blue

33. What is the weather like right now?
Sunny!!

34. First person you spoke to on the phone today?
A friend from work

35. Favorite soft drink?
Apple soda

36. Favorite restaurant?
Don’t have favourites really..

37. Real hair color?
Black but slightly brown!

38. Favorite toy as a child?
The imaginary ones!!

39. Summer or winter?
Summer…

40. Hugs or kisses?
Both!!

41. Chocolate or vanilla?
Vanilla

42. Coffee or tea?
Neither... but if I HAVE to chose I'd say... Coffee

43. When was the last time you cried?
16th of January 2009!!!

44. What is under your bed?
Hmmm…. Shoes,slippers and a box full of cards!!

45. What did you do last night?
Listend to pirith.

46. What are you afraid of?
That my heart would be broken again!

47. Salty or sweet?
Salty

48. How many keys on your key ring?
Hmm… none :D :D

49. Favorite day of the week?
Usually Sundays but of late Mondays have been great!! ;)

50. How many towns you lived in?
1.

51. Do you make friends easily?
Usually yes…

Sunday, 18 January 2009

I couldn't fight the tears that kept coming...

*Iris edited*


I would have given up forever to touch you
Cause I thought that you'll feel me some how
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
But it doesn't seem to matter right now

And I'll never forget that moment
A moment of hurt in my life
I know that it seems to be over
But I can't get my mind off that night

I didn't want the world to see me
Cause I didn't think that they'd understand
But now that everything seems to be broken
Even I am not sure who I am

I couldn't fight the tears that kept coming
Or the moment of hurt in my smiles
When everything felt like the movies
I just cried just to know I'm alive

Sunday, 11 January 2009

Prince Charming

From the time I was very small
I have always had a prince
I was 5 when I first met him
And I have been friends with him since

I first met him in my dreams
Where he once saved my life
Since then I kept dreaming of him
Specially as his wife

Then one fine day I met this guy
And I was surprised I was awake
Cause he was the prince I was dreaming of
It's then I knew he wasn't fake

So I got friendly with this guy
Plus dreamt of him more and more
The more I spoke the closer we got
And I knew I can't let go

Thank god my prince felt the same
And asked me to be his
Since then we have stuck together
Me as princess and he as prince

Friday, 9 January 2009

Help

I look, I think, I understand
But then why do I give a damn!

It feels so right but I know its wrong
I can't help but keep going on

Is it really wrong or could it be right?
Or am I afraid that it could be right?

Why am I confusing I do not know
God give me a sign as to where I should go

Tuesday, 6 January 2009

So Many Things To Tell You

I have so many things to tell you
But how do I make you see
That we can simply make it through
If I'm with you and your with me

We are from worlds apart I accept
And problems would come our way
But why can't you simply believe in us
Impossible is nothing they say

I can't pin point and find
The reason why I love you so
Maybe cause your cute, nice, caring,
Loving and so much more

The reason might not be convincing
But for sure one thing I know
I love you so much darling
And with each day I love you more

And if on one fine day as you believe
You and I would have to part
Remember you wont be the only one
Who is left with a broken heart

But if you think that this is pointless
And that you and I wont be
Then its up to you to take a decision
Please don't pass it on to me

As for me I will try my best
To make it work between us
Because I believe in miracles
And I do believe in us

As for you I guess you know this
But you are one talented guy
And you have it in you to make it big
All you got to do is try

I could go on and on for ever
Because I have so many things to tell
But I guess I'll take my leave now
And simply wish you well



Miss you loads but love you more!!!
mmwwhhaaaa!

Monday, 5 January 2009

Im Sorry

I hear your voice calling, I see your eyes reaching for me
My mind reaches back but my heart refuses to see

My mind clings on to you and never wants to walk away
My heart keeps looking at him and simply refuses to stay

I know you will be there for me but will always be wanting more
My mind wants more too but my heart will never let it show

I think you can hear it in my voice and see it in my eyes too
I want it to stop but I can't help reaching out to you

I know it is unfair and I should not be leading you on
But my mind always insists on keep holding on

I know it is no excuse but Im sorry I can't explain
Because I know I'll never let my mind win again

Over

Everything right
One thing wrong
Years of building
All falls down

Like in the movies
It was nothing bad
Just for a moment
I might have gone mad

Play it over and over
Pause and think
Rewind as I might
It wont blink

After awhile
I start to realise
Its not fiction
It is real life

I feel happy
And then I smile
Still have hope
Atleast for awhile

Then suddenly the hurt
And unstoppable pain
Starts to creep
Inside me again

To realise its over
Everything invain
It was once in a life time
It'll never happen again

But broken as I am
I must be strong
I will be happy
I shall move on