Saturday, 24 March 2012

To my long lost best friend

"Some say that time changes - best friends can become strangers." This was something which I used to believe was a false statement. Mainly because I thought that no matter how complicated or busy your life got, you always have time for friends. But with time, I have finally come to accept this and come to terms with it.

Just take a look at you and me...

We used to be so close that we were almost inseparable. We might have not spoken everyday, but when we did we had so much to say that it always felt like there was never enough time, and I hated saying bye. Also, if ever there was silence shared we both knew exactly what the silence meant.

But now, everything has changed and things are so different. We don't even talk to each other to begin with. I guess that is my fault, or was it yours? I don't remember. Either way, you are living in your world and me in mine with friends of our own. 

I have wondered what it would be like if we did talk to each other. No, I didn't mean I want to be your friend again. That would be a lie and that's something I still can't do to you. I was just curious to know how things would play out if we spoke. Will the nonstop jabbering start again? Will we pick up from where we left behind? Will we have a laugh about the good old days? I played it out in my head and pictured how things would go.

So I gave it a shot. Only to discover I was wrong. We spoke for long enough. But it was mere words being exchanged. It was nothing like how I had imagined it in my head and no where close to how things used to be. You have changed a lot. Or maybe I have! Times definitely have changed and you most definitely were a complete and total stranger. 

I am not writing this to tell you that I miss you and I wish things could go back to what it was. Things will never go back to how it used to be and I don't even want it to. I am happy with my life now and I don't want you to be a part of it.

But I do want to let you to know the following: So what, we weren't best friends for ever, but we were best friends for quite awhile and that still means something! There definitely is a reason  why you are not in my future or present for that matter, but then again, there also is a reason why you'll always be a part of my past. :)